lazy Sunday

a little bit of sun

pusenje ubija

foots, river and ducks

friday's party

Once in a house on a hill
A boy got angry
He broke into my heart
For a day and a night
I stayed beside him
Until I had no hope

So I came down the hill
Of course I was hurt
But then I started to think

It shouldn’t hurt me to be free
It’s what I really need
To pull myself together
But if it’s so good being free
Would you mind telling me
Why I don’t know what to do with myself

There’s a bar by the dock
Where I hide from myself
Drinking with this man
He offered me a cigarette
And I accepted
’Cause it’s been a very long time

As it burned ’till the end
I thought of the boy
No one could ever forget


To pull myself together
But if it’s so good being free
Would you mind telling me
Why I don’t know what to do with myself

To pull myself together
But if it’s so good being free
Would you mind telling me
Why I don’t know what to do with myself


Emiliana Torrini "To Be Free"

Pomiędzy mną a mną jest wielka niewiadoma. Nie odkrywa się przed światem, świat ją razi. To takie samo uczucie kiedy spojrzysz prosto w słońce, oślepia cię pomimo że masz okulary. Czy to twoje okulary nie działają? Czy ty już nie działasz? Choć staram się nosić sobą swoje miejsce, to jednak kolczaste ogrodzenie utrudnia mi wstęp. Jeśli istnieją w nas granice to tylko po to, by je przekraczać, ale moja granica ma drut kolczasty. Nie ja go tam założyłam. Owinęła mnie nim nadzieja.

I am out of my mind and lost in the way I decided to go ...
shit ...

...

how many thoughts is in my head ... you will never guess
time is running - too fast? don't know ... maybe
we don't need to say goodbye
not yet

Sunday was sunny

Fear
And the panic in the air
I want to be free
From desolation and despair
And I feel
Like everything I saw
Is been swept away
Well I refuse to let you go

I can't get it right
Get it right
Since I met you

Loneliness be over
When will this loneliness be over?

Life
Will flash before my eyes
So scattered and lost
I want to touch the other side
And no one
Thinks they are to blame
Why can't we see
When we bleed we bleed the same?

I can't get it right
Get it right
Since I met you

Loneliness be over
When will this Loneliness be over?

Loneliness be over
When will this Loneliness be over?

Muse "Map of Problematique"

what ?

wracam

myślę, że stanęłam w tym miejscu na poczekalni, tam gdzie mi kazali stoję
więc czekam ...
ilu przede mną ?
jeszcze paru
potem ja

Saturday morning

back in the meantime of waiting

somewhere between March and April ...

Spring came

It's been a while since my last time in here ... to be honest the atmosphere change. It's more sunny, the sky is more blue and you can find only few clouds up there. Spring is the best ! :) I think you will agree with me.

I'm waiting for Spring ... I'm waiting for sun.

Is this the real life?
Is this just fantasy?
Caught in a landslide
No escape from reality
Open your eyes
Look up to the skies and see
I'm just a poor boy, I need no sympathy
Because I'm easy come, easy go
A little high, little low
Anyway the wind blows, doesn't really matter to me, to me

Mama, just killed a man
Put a gun against his head
Pulled my trigger, now he's dead
Mama, life had just begun
But now I've gone and thrown it all away
Mama, ooo
Didn't mean to make you cry
If I'm not back again this time tomorrow
Carry on, carry on, as if nothing really matters

Too late, my time has come
Sends shivers down my spine
Body's aching all the time
Goodbye everybody - I've got to go
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth
Mama, ooo - (anyway the wind blows)
I don't want to die
I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all

I see a little silhouetto of a man
Scaramouch, scaramouch will you do the fandango
Thunderbolt and lightning - very very frightening me
Gallileo, Gallileo,
Gallileo, Gallileo,
Gallileo Figaro - magnifico

But I'm just a poor boy and nobody loves me
He's just a poor boy from a poor family
Spare him his life from this monstrosity
Easy come easy go - will you let me go
Bismillah! No - we will not let you go - let him go
Bismillah! We will not let you go - let him go
Bismillah! We will not let you go - let me go
Will not let you go - let me go (never)
Never let you go - let me go
Never let me go - ooo
No, no, no, no, no, no, no -
Oh mama mia, mama mia, mama mia let me go
Beelzebub has a devil put aside for me
for me
for me

So you think you can stone me and spit in my eye
So you think you can love me and leave me to die
Oh baby - can't do this to me baby
Just gotta get out - just gotta get right outta here

Ooh yeah, ooh yeah
Nothing really matters
Anyone can see
Nothing really matters - nothing really matters to me

Anyway the wind blows...

Queen "Bohemian Rhapsody"

and ?

- I love my darling - he said
-... so why do you call me, drunk, in the middle of the night ? - I asked
Silence.

...;/...

there is nothing left to say...

every morning I repeat

unfortunately unsuccessfully :(

nowhere

it is just too hard and too simple to just say how I really feel, what I really feel and what my eyes see ... people all around with emptiness in their glances going somewhere in fact going nowhere - where am I ?

let's

during walk

it's essential to find some while for an apple

last two days .........

learned my best friends that for stupidity you must pay sooner or later
Do you learn anything from your stupidity?